BCCTWB

This post is so pointed that the repetitive nature in the title (compared to October that is) makes it feel like the shady bitch is back, feel free to tell a friend.

While I find my little Eminem reference a fun way to complain about what my body is doing to me, for those of you who aren’t 100% on what that means, let’s just say I expect that it matches whatever is going on in your mind. And I hate to admit that but it’s certainly true, and certainly annoying, which makes straight up bitchy comments completely appropriate.

If we go back a few months, many of you will likely remember the incident which resulted in some fairly intense life changes. Long story short, my body was a bit dicey so we moved off the pills I was on, and began another round being sponsored by a different medical facility. Essentially I had to move away from the initial treatment and onto a new one that slowly corrected my issues.

For those of you who were involved in what was going on as I was off ahead of my slow-ish recovery, you can likely remember how bizarre it was and how I behaved. For those of you who weren’t as involved – I could barely walk without tripping or stumbling. My speech and conversations were a bit wonky. I couldn’t remember quite often, although most would argue that has popped up fairly often as a result of the existing memory issues developing into garbage in my brain. Anyways, let’s just say it was a combination of all the treatment and the mass that had grown on to my existing tumor that meant we had to do something to knock it’s impact in the balls.

The latest and greatest is we’ve discovered a much smaller mass that has grown along the right side of my brain and has become a new nuisance. It hasn’t really caused me much physical suffering which is a good thing. As referenced above I’m definitely more loopy doopy. It’s certainly annoying, but I’d argue probably more entertaining for those who witness the gobbeldygook on a recurrent basis. You’re welcome!

I continue to battle these “ailments” alongside a few other blahs. Attempting to eat a bit healthier (the struggle is real!!); acupuncture (amazing and free at a local charity – shout out to Ann’s Place); forcing some relaxation time so I’m not completely buried in exhaustion.

• Items to REALLY kick in include:
  • Extra boo-hoo memory garbage and general forgetfulness.
  • Taking chemo on an empty stomach two hours after dinner. No. Snacks. For. Me.
  • Exhaustion and a real serious need to day nap which is not really my jam, but becomes a necessity.
  • Going to MSK every day for 10 days for the radiation + two strands of medication at home on a daily basis + an infusion ever two weeks at the office.

The list carries on and feels never ending, but overall I’m feeling physically okay at this point so my complaint threshold is minimal at best, and I’m hoping it remains that way once everything kicks in. It sounds worse than it is in practice, but I can’t deny that it’s a lot to keep up with and find myself, again, surrounded by the most wonderful people who assist in keeping all this stuff and ME together – Ryan, Erica, Moms & Dads, The Goddard School (shout out seriously necessary), Erika, Shan, Al & Trevor, Ian and the 17 other primary contacts who I could include but you know who you are and my love for you all goes higher and further than you’ll ever grasp, even when you’re annoyed with me for forgetting to share a treatment gossip story with you…

Now onto some more grateful fun – here are some (too many…) pics that highlight how the last couple of months have been for myself and I hope many of those pictured here!

Alrighty I think that’s enough folks. It’s been really nice venting to such a receptive crowd – you all and your ears for listening and eyes for reading continue to make this cloud of bullshit a more manageable project. I hope you all enjoyed Christmas, are celebrating Hanukkah with zest and vigor, and are ready to say DEUCES ✌🏼 to 2024.